03 November 2017

Fierce Grace

Tonight I am Wild

Wild with freedom
Skin soaked Passion
Clarity of mind
Heart bursting open

All these feel good on me
As the letting go unfolds

Layers layers layers dropping away and I am the lightness of being

I am being

I am



Concepts of who I was, am and will be - dissolve
Once, these concepts binded me
The confining layer breaks open - chunks, pieces, bits, particles, atoms
Cascading, a string of pearls breaks off the neck of the perfect one
And scatters into nothingness on the universe’s floor

What I am is in process of becoming undone
Unraveling in the best way imaginable

Before this, all I could taste was the longing
And now, drops of sweet liberation bless my tongue

This life is one long moment of fierce grace

But tonight I am Wild

I am Wild

And you are fierce grace

27 September 2017

Is Creativity a Missing Link to Our Well-being & Happiness?

It is not sufficient to treat disease by addressing only the physical symptoms that display in the body. In order to achieve greater balance and well-being it is essential to look deeper into the root of what ails us and to see where there is stagnation (mentally, physically, emotionally, spiritually). I believe that an important piece of the wellness puzzle lies in our creativity and our ability to express ourselves fully. This article approaches the wellness conversation from an intersection of creative expression and maintaining a balanced energy system in the body. It is possible that putting more attention on these aspects of our lives can create an optimal foundation for a healthier and happier life.

In Traditional Chinese Medicine (TCM), balanced energy (Qi) is thought to be a critical component  maintaining health and wellness. According to TCM, Qi stagnation is one of the main correlates of disease and illness. In another field of study, Thomas Hübl, a modern day integral mystic, discusses the concept of completing the “loop of full expression” and how this helps clear the energy system of stagnant energy. Hübl says that we all have certain impulses and a unique inner expression that longs to be fully expressed in order to complete our soul’s mission in this lifetime. Hübl quotes Lao Tzu’s words from the Tao Te Ching on this matter, saying “express yourself completely then keep quiet”. Both of these center around the movement of energy; as an antidote to stagnation.

So how is creative expression interconnected with health & happiness and how can we bring creative expression more fully into our daily lives? First off, I would like to share with you my definition of creativity as I think there is a lot of misconception about what creativity is and isn’t. Creativity is making something from (seemingly) nothing at all. It is the art of opening, allowing, deep listening and allowing energy to flow freely in and around out of the body. Creativity is energy, vitality, life force. Creativity is expansion and contraction. Creativity is anything that stems from inspiration, longing, imagination, and spontaneity. It is a cathartic dynamic process.  

Creativity means many different things to many different people. I want to dispel the myth that only some people are lucky enough to be creative. Creativity is a natural impulse and innate part of being human. Creativity is not limited to the select lucky few who have been blessed with the genetic make-up like Mozart or other successful and acclaimed artists. Why do I think all adults possess some sort of creativity? Because every child I have ever come in contact with has had a spark of creativity. I have worked with hundreds of children over the years and the one thing they all have in common is that they ALL possess an imagination and inclinations of this spark of creativity. This imagination lends to exploring creative impulses and various ways of creative expression, be it playing make-believe, dressing up, making up stories, singing silly songs, playing sports, etc. As children grow into adults this spark and creativity can become covered over, dismissed and shunned. But I believe it is essential to reclaim and own our full expression as adults.

So what are some of the ways that we can move energy, express ourselves fully and bring more creativity into our daily lives as adults? How can we nurture the spark that we once had as a young child so that can bring more vitality and happiness into our lives?

Here are a few easy ways to start:
  1. Acknowledge that you ARE a creative being and that there are many ways to express creativity
  2. Explore the activities that put you into a “flow state” (sense of losing yourself in an activity or give you a sense of timelessness)
  3. Give yourself permission to be expressive and creative
  4. Create at least one time block in your schedule per week for creative exploration
  5. Track your energy levels before and after you do something fun, playful or creative and consider that this may be correlated to your overall sense of well-being

Three Powerful First steps towards a more creatively charged life
Some key aspects that I cover in my creativity coaching work with my clients:

1.   Cultivate a deep listening practice
2.   Create your creative life vision statement
3.   Cultivate a creative growth mindset (approach your day to day challenges from a place of curiosity and possibility, rather than pessimism and frustration)

Emily Lewis, MA holds a Masters degree in Integrative Health with a focus in sound therapies and wellness coaching from the California Institute of Integral Studies in San Francisco. As a holistic organizer and creativity coach, she sees the connection that our outer environment plays in our day to day energy levels and our capacity for creative expression. Her passion is to help others live more empowered and creatively expressed lives through achieving more balance in the mind, body and heart. For more information on her organizing and creativity coaching work visit: www.emilymaylewis.com . Emily is a singer/songwriter and just released her first album with Sweet Medicine. Listen and download here: sweetmedicine.bandcamp.com.

29 June 2017

Upleveling my financial reality

There is ONE reason I am not make the $$$ that I want to be currently. A wise person that I am growing closer to every day pointed me to a truth about this that I was really able to finally understand in a profound way. Don't get me wrong. I have always had enough to eat. Not one day have I ever been hungry or thirsty. I have always had the essentials covered. I have a car. I have a home. I go to festivals, I buy organic food. I go out to eat whenever I want. I belong to a gym. I go to concerts. I go to movies. I buy plane tickets to visit friends and family. So from some perspectives I am doing really well and I am grateful for the lifestyle I have allowed myself to achieve up until this point. So what is the ONE thing that has been holding me back from up-leveling my financial success? I'll give you a hint. It starts with a B... Yes, it's my Belief system. I 100% believed that I deserved and was worthy of getting just what I need to get by. I have believed for many years that I am ok with just getting the essentials covered and maybe a few bonus things here and there. But underneath that belief was the larger belief that I couldn't have more (or I didn't actually deserve more). Limiting beliefs around what I am worthy of getting has kept me bound to only have just enough and until I shift this particular belief I will stay at this same just enough level forever... I am being 100% transparent about this b/c I think that many people in my community are experiencing or have their own version of this scenario. I don't want to have shame as another aspect of this conversation so by airing it, I am normalizing it so that it can de-pressurize out of my system. I am shifting my belief around what I deserve and I am installing a new belief system that I have places for more $ to go, I deserve to have whatever I want in my life and I am worthy of it. I know that I stand in integrity and have such a huge prayer for my life which is to serve communities (both privileged and underserved populations) and in order to manifest my vision I am choosing to up-level my capacity for holding wealth and abundance. May the chalice be open to receive. May it be so. Aho. #creatrixcollective #creativitycouragechallenge #loveisthekey #igniteyourdivinespark #blessmylife

Stop Outsourcing Your Wisdom

I cannot give you creativity. I cannot teach you how to sing. I cannot explain a proven method on how to further your spiritual path. And I sure as hell can't help you find God. I am not here to help you add things to your life. I am not here to show you the three steps to living a more fulfilling life or the 5 steps towards reaching your full potential. I have to speak out as an individual who has an aversion to the formulaic way that so many coaching programs and self help gurus over promise and under deliver. If someone tells you they can help you make 6 figures in the next 90 days beware, or better yet, run far away! I have been sitting on the sidelines of this whole explosion of the coaching business in the bay area and I have to say that it has always left a bad taste in my mouth - it's the part of me that doesn't believe that we can fit an entire group of people into some formula and if they all follow it they will surely be successful. I kept thinking I would try it, I would pay $10K and join a program and be in for a year and then I would understand the magic formula to making over $100K/ year. I would finally be rich! And my problems would melt away... But I couldn't do it. Instead I hired a business coach. I have been working with him (Andy Lambert) for about 5 weeks and it was the best decision I could have made. I needed one on one coaching tailored specifically for my needs and what I am going to accomplish. This is where I saw a lot of the other programs falling short. I know I needed special attention! I needed someone I could brainstorm with, someone who was going to hold me to the fire and make me clarify my vision in a detailed way. Someone who was willing to listen to my vision and totally believe in me.
It feels authentic. It feels like it's helping me. And it's getting me excited to build my own coaching programs and teaching modules.
Presently I am refining my own individualized coaching program. I know I am here to help creative beings be more creatively expressed but I am also excited to explore coaching the population of silicon valley corporate executives to help them burst their hearts open, help them expand their own consciousness so that they can utilize their creative potential to inform & balance the exploding tech sector with heart centered wisdom, depth of awareness, spontaneity and playful lightness of being. Creative problem solving, heart opening, energy cultivation exercises, deep listening are just a few of the tools I will be teaching to help individuals move from repression to expression. I am forming a new language through this work. I am bridging tech lingo with whoo whoo and I am here to remind individuals to stop outsourcing your wisdom! It is time to learn the deep listening practices that are available. there is much wisdom medicine within your heart and your body and I am here to help those who are interested in learning about soul time and how to find the natural flow and pace of life your soul is asking of you to move with.
I am here to help individuals subtract the layers. The extra layers, the pretense that cover who they/you came here to be.
You hold infinite wisdom in your heart and in your body. As you read these words you know the truth I am speaking of. The quiet knowing that resides within you. That same knowing that resides within each of us. Do you hear it?
I am here as a gentle reminder that no matter how slow you think you are moving you could probably slow down even more and that may not be slow enough to align you with your soul-time.
What is your soul-time? How can you stop outsourcing your wisdom?
Interested in learning more? Let me know if you're interested in going on a deeper journey with me. I offer individual coaching as well as training modules on how to move from Repression to Expression! If you resonate with this message and feel intrigued to join me then please do! Send me a private message or sign up for my Divine Spark Newsletter on my website (emilymaylewis.com) #igniteyourdivinespark #creatrixcollective #creativecouragechallenge #loveisthekey #blessmylife

27 June 2017

Turning Grievances Into Gold

I am a collector

a collection of grievances tucked away in my belly and heart - never having a rainy day to come out and play 

poetically I weave stories of how others have hurt me. what does this give me? i get to be disappointed in others shortcomings. I get to feel like I have power over them in this game of control. they owe me something, always in my favor. 

Fuck this. this game is old. frayed edges. box is lost at this point and there is no bag around to keep the pieces together. It's too much work to keep track of any of it anymore. 

I keep trying to rearrange the pieces on the board so they stay in my favor. But eventually I get it. I surrender. 

The pawn here is me.

Playing myself. Hedging my bets against my own heart.

No matter which way I turn I lose. Because my heart hurts and no one else feels the impact as much as me. I realize it does me no good to hold on. Yet it seems so familiar. So comfortable. Now that sense of comfort turns into a look of bewilderment on my inner child's face. She's confused by this nonsense I am spinning. She looks at me like I must be crazy and she wonders how I have crafted such a fantastical tale of reality when it is her job to have the wild imagination. She looks at me with a sense of a bigger Truth in her heart. She is pleading with me to let it go. Let it all go Emmy. You are meant to be happy. You are meant to feel and know the lightness of being. You are meant to know your inherent worthiness. Inside you are gold. Inside you are love. You are light. There is no reason to carry the burden of the grievances on your back. They are weighing you down. They are tugging at your heart, they are making you tired, forlorn and bitter. 

So what now? What to do with all of this awareness of the game that has been at play for too long?

I lay it down. I lay it all down. I have a bigger desire to be undefended. I have a bigger desire to have an open heart. I have a bigger longing to see what I can manifest and co-create when my heart sparkles and is free and light and as it was when I was a young child before anything happened that pushed me to build the wall around it. I am breaking down the wall. I am opening my heart wider, deeper, more fully that ever before in my life. I may appear soft. I may seem fragile at first. I don't want to wear the mask of the strong one if I feel I am not.

I want to forgive it ALL. I want to let it all out of my heart and body and release it into the ocean. Into mother earth. Into father sky. I am committed more now to riding the edge of fierce optimism and unexplored potential. I am committed to exploring what it feels like to choose happiness in spite of anything that comes into my realm of experience. The choice is mine and I choose happiness in every moment I can remember to.

I know you may have heard all of this before. And maybe you have heard this all before from me. Something big has shifted though. I have moved on from who I used to be.

Like a cicada attached to tree, a 7 year cycle, I crawled out of the old Oakland skin that surrounded me. Now, fresh body, big trees, ocean air, new visions for a life that is free of the grievances, free of the hustle and the chaos. Oakland, the eddy I spiraled into on the river of my life. I spun in circles for years trying to find solid gold ground to come ashore but life pushed me further downstream.

I learned. I grew tremendously. I went way deep down into my shadow. I got my heart broken several times. I got abandoned. I learned that I could never be abandoned. I healed. I danced. I camped. I got therapy (lots of it). I laughed. I searched. I cried. I yelled. I sang. I burned. I played festivals, conferences, convergences. I organized parties. I started an on-going conversation with my inner child.

And I discovered Songtaneity. Who is Songtaneity? She is me and I am her. She is the embodiment of my fuller self creatively expressed self that is yearning to share her magic. She is still incubating but every day she grows more curious and wants to come out and play. She is a performer. She is magic. She is love and light. She is a mystical being who is guided by angels, listens to the redwoods and speaks in light language. She is not afraid of what you think as she knows she has the utmost pure intentions of sharing creativity. She is a portal and a way for me to get out of my own way and start creating on a bigger level. She doesn't know fear. She is guided by love, beauty, truth, openness, courage and expansion. Stay tuned... She is weaving sonic strands of sound reaching high into the heavens. She is humming soft tunes in the candlelight. She is walking the labyrinth and swinging in hammocks. She is creating music in her wee little attic room. She is listening to the silence and moving to her own heartbeat drum...